It amazes me how I always pick the wrong guy. The boy was a perfect match from eHarmony. The only problem was that while the site promoted committed, marriage and happily ever after. . .the boy didn’t want that. He’s back on there now and the lowest of lows, defriended me on Facebook. Seriously?

I feel like such a fool, a loser. Someone who is destined to be the nicest, most supportive girlfriend but at the end of the day, umm, not so fast Amy. The ultimate commitment is not to be found and it breaks my heart. What did I ever do to deserve this? Even with the weight loss, I still feel like fat Amy, unable to find the guy that will love me for me, take care of me and be honest with me.

My stomach is beyond torn up and the thought of putting on a happy face is so difficult. I don’t want to get my heart broken again, I am barely making it day to day. And the cherry on the top? Our second date was at Chappy’s and where am I going tomorrow for a work lunch? Chappy’s.

Yeah, my stomach is really going to be thanking me for that one tomorrow. I just want to disappear in a hole and when I reemerge that everything will be better.

I love the boy and now I am questioning if he ever loved me. Thanks. I appreciate it and feel even worse.


What you see is what you get; I am a Nashville girl who is single, again. I use the blog to get my inner, tortured, wanna be writer angst out. One day I just may write a book. I have been stumbling through life for 43 years now, I love to cook, read and figure out more embarrassing ways I can either harm myself (thank you hula hoop of 2010 and the case of the thrown back) or just prove how inept I am at household chores and dieting. The people you read about on here are real but most have had their names changed to protect the innocent and not so innocent. And I really should make a list of them so I can remember! Enjoy, read, mock, laugh and comment, it really isn't difficult. Plus, I would prefer reading comments from real people as opposed to the weird spam comments I keep getting. Plus, I will always find the hardest path to follow and take that one, why would anyone want to take the easy way?!

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