A Brief Pause. . .


I will update more on Liam once I get the latest update and feel like a heel for even posting something other than Liam’s health but. . .

I am frustrated. As I have sat praying, worrying and being there for my friends this past week, the other thought crept up in my mind. I wish that I had a significant other to lean on during all of this. I had sounding so selfish because my struggles in life are nothing compared to what Stacey and Jason are going through.

But as I was sitting and watching something on tv, I realized that what I had been thinking about the boy is probably wrong. It is not his fault that he didn’t want to be with me, maybe he was even relieved when I bailed. I set him up to fail. I should have been honest from the start and when it seemed kind of questionable, I should have left then.

I want a man that is going to be there for me, through thick and thin. When I am feeling chubby, he doesn’t mind and one that cares about me just as much as I care about him. Finding him is the hard part. I just don’t know how to go about it anymore. Plus, trusting and opening up to someone new is beyond difficult.

As I stumble through life, trying to find my way, I keep asking God what the plan is but I know that he answers in his own time. Not mine. Which then comes my own problem because I am not someone that can sit and wait. I get anxious.

I am hoping that with most of my thoughts consumed with Liam that I will at least be distracted and not notice that only one I am coming home to is my cat. I love that little booger but sometimes you need more. Just don’t tell Wookie that please. . .it could get ugly around here.

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What you see is what you get; I am a Nashville girl who is single, again. I use the blog to get my inner, tortured, wanna be writer angst out. One day I just may write a book. I have been stumbling through life for 43 years now, I love to cook, read and figure out more embarrassing ways I can either harm myself (thank you hula hoop of 2010 and the case of the thrown back) or just prove how inept I am at household chores and dieting. The people you read about on here are real but most have had their names changed to protect the innocent and not so innocent. And I really should make a list of them so I can remember! Enjoy, read, mock, laugh and comment, it really isn't difficult. Plus, I would prefer reading comments from real people as opposed to the weird spam comments I keep getting. Plus, I will always find the hardest path to follow and take that one, why would anyone want to take the easy way?!

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