I Wish. . .

There are so many things that I wish for, sometimes it silly things, sometimes its me being selfish and other times those wishes seem bigger than me. I seem to mix my wishes into my prayers, knowing that He sees the big picture and little ole me cannot, so I get frustrated. But that is okay because He knows me, knows that while I wish I could be patient to see life unfold that in time I will get it and I will smile, thanking Him for answered prayers.

I wish I was better at dealing with my money and that I made more. Of course, that takes time and seeing as how I am learning, the hard way; it will all come together in the end. No debt to deal with, money in savings and gifts to my family and friends will be the reward.

I wish that I could stop chowing down on sweets! I need to get healthy and I am working towards that goal. Of course, this goes hand in hand with my lack of grace. I somehow managed to mess up my alignment in my lower back which is making my left hip scream in pain. I have done lots of things to hurt myself before but I can safely say that this has to be the worst. I yelp when I get up or sit down. Walking is okay to a certain extent, laying down is great and reclining on the couch, even better. I know that it is working on healing but being out of shape puts a crimp in it. And how did I injure myself? Oh, you know, I was at field day for my department and am guessing that my stint in hula hooping got the best of me. And yes, I still trip over my feet when walking! I would do great in a sitcom!

I wish that I was in Nashville right now to help out those affected by the flood. I am hoping that I will have a chance to volunteer when I am up there to visit soon. I wish I had the money to send there but that is not in the budget. So for now, I am praying for Nashville, hoping that those who lost everything are being taken care of and that soon, they will be able to go back to their homes. I would love to be able to just do laundry for those that need clean clothes. I would even separate them like you are supposed to!

I wish I had the courage to put myself out there to meet people, to open my heart up to a man. I am getting there, it just takes me a bit longer to get to that starting line. I have been back and forth about things that have happened in the past, made apologies to one that I did hurt and forgiven the one that broke my heart. For now, I am concentrating on the love I have for friends, family and my crazy cat.

I have been inspired by a book I have been reading, “I Will Carry You,” by Angie Smith. The story touches me deeply because the loss of Audry has helped me see what my friends have been going through after they lost Liam. I have prayed hard while reading the book and plan on going back to the references she has made to the Bible so I can study them. Reading her story has made me see that while I may think I have had hard times, they are so minor compared to hers, to my friends and to others who have had to endure a loss of a child. Pray with me that God will continue to bless them, to give them peace and to know that their children made a mark on this world.

I wish for my friends to be blessed soon with a healthy baby brother or sister for Liam. I actually make a point of going out on my deck nightly to find a star and wish. Then I say a prayer.

I wish I was neater instead of a messy child. I have the hardest time setting time aside to clean and the sad fact is I have a vacuum cleaner that is the bomb! A Dyson that my parents very sweetly gave me for Christmas. I love that thing but it takes a lot of talking to myself to get it out and let it do its job. I took it out this weekend and marveled at how nice my place looked, even with a brief once over. I should do it weekly but. . .

I wish that all of you who read my blog take the time to be grateful for what you have been blessed with, that you know that you are loved and that through Him, everything is going to be okay.