If you noticed the blogs I have listed to the right, they all chronicle the lives of families. Most blog to keep their families and friends in the loop, update pictures and milestones and laugh at the latest their kids have come up with.
Me? Well, in my head I wanted to blog and get my name out there because I am a writer. I can still hear my English/Journalism teacher talking about the inverted pyramid way of writing an article. A blog gives me the ability to edit and publish as I see fit.
It is also a nice little journal of what in the world is going on with me. I do tend to edit my thoughts or leave some things a little on the vague side because this is the internet and there are people out there who would use my words or even your words against you. So I give nicknames sometimes and sometimes I just go ahead and put the person’s name in the story.
There is a fine line in being open and honest because we all know we judge. We judge what is said, how people react and the actions that come across this big old world known as the internet. This is my third attempt at blogging. My second blog was quite a lot of fun but I retired it because it was racy. Not R or X rated racy, just not a lot of editing on my part to make sure that things didn’t get out that I didn’t want others to know.
My 100 Things About Moi? Well, it was changed up a bit when I went for blog number three. And it was a good thing since mom has since found this blog. I don’t really live life on the edge, I have my vices, like everyone else but sometimes, it is just easier not to have to answer to the parental unit.
This blog started as a way to get out those feelings for the boy after I walked away. Then it morphed into single gal in her 30s dealing with the idea that there is no mate out there for me, transformed into a begging of prayers and miracles for my BFF, her hubby and Liam and finally, me wanting to be back home in Nashville.
My thoughts are random and I get some of the best ones when I am in the shower. I don’t have a clue as to why I get them there but I do. The funny thing is, when I was still at my other office, I mentioned that I had a couple of ideas while in the shower when I was talking to my boss. He just laughed and said, you know, I do that too. So maybe I am not as weird as I think.
Being single in your 30s is not what it is cracked up to be, trust me on that one. As I get closer to the whole, I don’t want to try and have kids at X age and beyond, I get a little jumpier. The issues I have are not the end all be all but hey, when you finally can say, umm, yeah, I want to get married and have kids, it starts to scare the crap out of you. Especially if you are me, suck at dating and have been in denial about wanting all of that.
The conversation I had with the boy this past weekend, well, it was interesting. I was basically explaining to him what a normal relationship is all about. You have to have each other’s back, have some dreams, common interests and the ability to form a relationship that works for both parties.
And when I spoke about all of this with him, I was speaking to him as a friend. And it was kind of weird. I am used to being harsh with Mike. But the boy? Not so much. But all in all, I think he handled it okay and didn’t see me as going off the deep end. Now if he takes my thoughts and really thinks about things, that is all on him. I did get a great meal, an Ole Miss shirt and a book I wanted to reread. Oh, and I got cooking tips. Something that I have been wanting to pick his brain about for the past year.
Will I find the one? Will I get married and have kids? I haven’t a clue. At this time, I am focusing on me, reading, writing and just contemplating my life, as a party of one. While it isn’t the most ideal situation, it is where I am and I am not going to beat myself up about it. I have dreams of my own that do not need a man inserted into them. I am willing to share them with that special someone but until then, I am going to have fun and just be me.
So I blog to get my thoughts out, to publish my words the best way I know how and hopefully offer up some giggles to you dear readers. I like comments, so I will beg for some more comments but keep on reading and scratching your head at how I like to go about dealing with my life. And if any of you know of a book agent or contacts within the industry, I would love to be able to pick their brains as well.
So the blogging will continue and I guess I really need to work on actually adding pictures from time to time. I know that I like seeing pictures on other blogs. Which reminds me, I am so calling you out Rachel. . . when are you going to update your blog???? Yeah, I know, you have four kids and it is always crazy but I love hearing about those crazy little ones!