The One Where It All Starts to Kind of Make Sense

I know that there are mean people in the world, and there are even petty people out there that will just be nasty in order to create drama. I don’t get it but maybe I am naive enough to believe if you are a good person and treat people with kindness, than they should return that back to you as well.

Son came over today for a girls day and it was much need. We talked about stupid choices in our youth, she did call me on some of my issues (I tend to shut down once I get hurt) but she reiterated that in her eyes, I was a strong person who would come back out of this pain with more knowledge and the ability to believe in hope and love.

But then a bomb was dropped that I still can’t get my mind wrapped about. Apparently our friend Allen was a negative butt who wanted a buddy to hang with instead of being along or having to jockey for time between buddy and the girlfriend.

Since it came out of the blue from all those years ago, it is kind of fuzzy but it does make sense. She felt Jorge did what he was told to do but had wanted to come back to me but got a random girl knocked up. If there is any truth to this it validates that I wasn’t crazy. It also shows that Allen needs some serious help. . . .people if your friends want to get in the middle of a relationship and break you up, they are not your friends.

Kind of like when an ex comes up with promises and sells that this, that or the other won’t work, just get rid of her kind of thing.

At some point, the cruelty, the games, the drama will come back to haunt you. I may never be around for it but just know, once again, I can look myself in the mirror and be cool with my reflection. I don’t feel guilt. But I do appreciate the multiple knives in my back. I do prefer higher end knives though, k? Thanks.

I am so grateful to have the family and friends that I have in my life. I will always have moments of stumbling but I am kind and willing to help out if you need anything.

And for my friends dealing with broken marriages, I am sorry you are going through this, I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I hope that you all find happiness sooner rather than later.

And if you want, I will go kick their ass.